Change of Plans

For the longest time I have had my heart set on graduation; however, as the end is quickly approaching, I have realized my fears are mcuh more prevalent. I am very worried for the unknown factor of this next chapter in my life. It is not as much of a scared or unprepared worried feeling, it is more of an excited and intrigued worried. I know ever since I decided where I wanted to go to school next year, I felt like I had outgrown Beulah and high school as a whole. I think I am trying to speed things up too fast. We only have so many days left in this school, it took me until just this morning to see how fast my life will change. This is all I have ever known in life. Living with my family, going to school and work, and enjoying time with friends around town; this is all going to change. Don't get me wrong, I still am quite thrilled to be moving on. It just dawned on me how soon this is all going to occur. My mother and I had a conversation this morning about career and college life and BAM! Just like that it hit me.
All my so called "future" plans, can change in a second! I recieved a letter in the mail today giving me more information on Geology. I thought I had my standards set to become a physical therapist, but geology could definately be a career for me as well. I love the hands on opportunity of the job and it is something I am going to ponder over the summer.
My whole point here is to not grow up too fast. I know we all get this same lecture over and over again throughout our lives, but please take the words of wisdom. Spend time being a teenager and a kid. We all are growing up soo fast. The rest of life is dedicated to working, so why over stress it now. I wish I could go back and take my own advice because I missed out on alot over these past years. I would work on nights every one wanted off; I thought it would make me a better employee. It did, but it also made me much more mature than I would like sometimes.